heartofbden

heartofbden @ 2008-09-24T21:50:00

2008-09-25T04:51:54Z

I realized something today. In a few months it will be my one year anniversary of this place. And soon after that I'll have been with my Frank for almost a year.
Oh my god.
Elena is perfect. She's bigger than ever. She has Frank's eyes.

heartofbden @ 2008-08-31T12:05:00

2008-08-31T19:07:00Z

Elena is the perfect baby.
The other night when Frank was sleeping I was just sitting up with her, and she's just...there are no words for her.
She is the perfect child, in every possible way.

I always thought I could never do this...
But we're doing it Frank.

heartofbden @ 2008-08-06T17:49:00

2008-08-07T00:50:39Z

Our little girl was born today.

Her name is Elena Urie-Iero and she's totally perfect.

Frank does this mean you can marry her daddy now? *puppy eyes*

The little munchkin is currently sucking on her daddy's finger. She's so big and strong already and I'm falling more and more in love.

heartofbden @ 2008-08-01T15:32:00

2008-08-01T22:33:16Z

Things have been great. It's nearly time for Elena to be born, and I am more excited then I had ever been.
I have been here, just waiting for that day to come.
I love my friends and family and it's all going very well.
I am so glad we have come this far.

- Brendon
heartofbden

heartofbden @ 2008-07-23T20:54:00

2008-07-24T03:58:15Z

I was looking a baby names online, and did you know that Elena means wicker, reed, torch, basket?
I was just thinking that's gonna be a hillarious thing to tell our daughter one day.
"Oh honey, you were named after a basket of course."

Hah, but that would only be joking of course.
The most important thing to me is that we're giving our daughter a name with meaning
(yes meaning beyond basket)
I can never thank Mikey enough for his actions.

I haven't been able to do much with Frank lately and i regret that.

heartofbden @ 2008-07-08T16:01:00

2008-07-08T23:03:32Z

Things have been alright. I mean, I've been here in case any of you still want to get ahold of me. I miss a lot of the people around here, because we just don't talk anymore.
I've been focusing on school, so that my little girl can have the best from her father. We gotta get real jobs one of these days Frank, so that Elena's got parents who can take care of and support her all on her own.

I really haven't seen anyone lately and it kind of sucks. Still, it makes me happy to know that in ten weeks I am going to be a father for real. I never wanted anything more than what me and Frank have with our lives right now.

To me that is the key of my happiness.

- Brendon Urie.

heartofbden @ 2008-06-25T01:24:00

2008-06-25T08:25:12Z

Well things have been pretty dull actually.
Frank you're not around :P It makes Brendon sad.

Our baby is coming pretty soon and that's scaring me senseless.

I can't wait to see my baby's face though.

heartofbden @ 2008-06-11T21:48:00

2008-06-12T04:48:52Z

Things have been pretty good.

Just waited to play daddy.

I've been coming up with lots of names.

It's really exciting.

heartofbden @ 2008-05-18T18:35:00

2008-05-19T01:35:57Z

So things are going okay.
I haven't talked to many people in awhile.

I want to talk to everyone...
but I see all these issues and it worries me.

IM me?

heartofbden is the sn

heartofbden @ 2008-04-19T23:58:00

2008-04-20T07:00:05Z

What is a father?

To me, my father was a cruel and hateful man who did things that I have pretty much repressed in my memory.

I never did understand the definition of that word.

heartofbden @ 2008-04-19T02:04:00

2008-04-19T09:06:07Z

I'm posting a sleepy 2am blog...

I'm tired.

I'm gonna get Frank the help he needs. He's doing good and I love my baby.

Frank was sick today. He says it's not from the drugs. That's worrying me.

I gotta go to bed guys

Brendon's about to pass out.

heartofbden @ 2008-04-17T14:04:00

2008-04-17T21:10:40Z

Frank we are forever. I will always love you and there is nothing you could do that would get rid of me.
You and me, Frank.
It is the only thing in the world I have faith in.
The rest of the world just dissapear when I have you with me.
You are my one and only Frank.
I want to marry you one day.
You promised me the stereotypical American dream and I want it.
You and me against the world Frank.
And nothing you do could do will ever change us.
I love you and would die to see you healthy and happy.

heartofbden @ 2008-04-12T23:29:00

2008-04-13T06:30:44Z

I have the best boyfriend in the world.

He is my life, my love, and everything to me. Without Frank I wouldn't be here to talk to any of you.

Many of you wonder about our little escape to Florida.

It was our way of saving our lives, and Frank saved mine.

Now we know that we are ready to face the world. We are ready to live and love and enjoy every minute of our lives.

We are ready to look to the future.

Today on my birthday, I realized how much I love that man with all of my heart and soul.

heartofbden @ 2008-04-12T00:11:00

2008-04-12T07:12:06Z

So it's eleven minutes past midnight...

I'm eighteen :D

Frank I do believe a birthday gift is in order.

heartofbden @ 2008-04-02T17:11:00

2008-04-03T00:13:14Z

Home is where the heart is. Yes?
I have found that this place is really where my heart lies.
Frank and I haven't done that much.
We just are trying to adjust, get back into the swing.

Gerard, thank you for being so kind.
I really am amazed at your...way of handling things.

Jyrki, we haven't got to talk much.
I'd like to see you again.

Quinn, you out there?

Allison, meeting you has been really fantastic.

Everyone else new, it's been fun meeting you too.

heartofbden @ 2008-03-29T00:34:00

2008-03-29T07:36:33Z

We're back!

Frank and I have been returned.
We're stronger than ever.

Jyrki - I miss you and want to see you ASAP. Dude, it has been like forever. We got you a snowglobe.

Ryan - Super Brendon misses his friend. See me?

Quinn - I made peace with myself, and...well we need to talk. I have presents for the baby, if you still have the heart to call her my niece ;D

Everyone else, well...come meet us? That includes you newbies.

heartofbden @ 2008-03-26T00:05:00

2008-03-26T07:07:02Z

I'm alive.
Just so you know.
If you still care.

My birthday's on April 12.
Eighteen...geez. :( It's amazing.
I never thought I would live to this day.

I mean it.
I knew I'd be free of my parents at eighteen
but I never thought I'd live that long.
I thought they'd kill me.

Frank, thanks for saving me.

I love you.

- Brendon

P.S See you all by my birthday I'm sure.

heartofbden @ 2008-03-21T12:19:00

2008-03-21T19:22:25Z

We're still out.
You haven't taken us down yet.

We're stronger than ever.
~~I'm getting healthy again~~

Look what I did.

Look at what my love did.

We're running, we're fighting.
~~we'll be bringing you all presents. gotta special one for you Goi dear~~

heartofbden @ 2008-03-07T22:18:00

2008-03-08T06:21:41Z

So, life is so much better.
Frank, I love you.
Jyrki you're a great friend.

Is it just me or as Frank said, is spring leaving a good mood?

heartofbden @ 2008-03-05T02:09:00

2008-03-05T10:11:05Z

I'm alive.
I'm alive and I'm not going to give up.

~~I still can't look in the mirror~~

But I am going to heal,
and I am going to love.
I'm not gonna let this beat me.

My future is Frank and me, and
the whole white picket fence deal.
I'm not gonna let my brain
and whatever the hell's wrong with it kill me.

Quinn come see me.
I want to make sure you're okay.

I am strong.
~~Except when the nightmares come~~
But Frank chases them away

heartofbden @ 2008-03-02T20:18:00

2008-03-03T04:19:01Z

"If I told you to to jump would you jump with me?"
"Without a thought."

Frank, when I go, you better not follow.
Don't love me like I love you.

Frank - You were my world and my love, and as much as I hated you for betraying me, I will always love you. Forever and always. Please find someone who loves you and will take care of you, get you off the drugs. You're so much better than that. Frank, I'm never gonna forget how good it felt to be loved by you. You've always been an angel and brought light into my world.

Jyrki - You've been the best friend to me. I am so sorry for all the pain your life and pursuits have put you through. You'll find the love you deserve, I promise it to you. Open up your sights, and know that I always did love you. You brought me through the worst pain ever.

Ryan - I've been a horrible friend to you. Here I was missing you and now it's all over. Be strong. Don't let them bring you down. Follow your love and your heart.

Goi - You're a smart man. You picked out the insane one from the bunch. You shoulda thrown me out or locked me up before someone got hurt. You failed.

Jared - I want you to know that I'm sorry. You're a good guy. Please protect him from the world. People like me shouldn't exist but they do.

Quinn - Fuck, Quinn, words cannot even say how sorry I am. I have done the unthinkable. Please don't let it destroy you. Please. Take care of your little girl, live your life. I've already destroyed me. I don't wanna do the same to you. I know that it doesn't matter but Quinn, I'm sorry.

Everyone just know that Purgatory was a rare salvation from the Hell that was my childhood.
But it couldn't save me.

heartofbden @ 2008-03-02T15:15:00

2008-03-02T23:20:27Z

Honesty is a hard attribute to find

So, you let him fuck you,
for your precious drug.
You know, I adore you,
but sometimes I just want to hate you.

You talked about jumping
well god it looks more tempting every day.

I can't live with this.
I'm honestly terrified.

heartofbden @ 2008-03-02T03:29:00

2008-03-02T12:05:12Z

I'm feeling so scared.

I haven't been this scared in a long time.

Why build someone up so many times, just to break them again?

I can only take so many more blows. Really.

Just know I love you Frank.

Finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I'm gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
It's where I want to be

I'm looking past the shadows
in my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now

[lifehouse "breathing" why yes it was rp and listen to sap night <3]

heartofbden @ 2008-02-29T13:01:00

2008-02-29T21:05:02Z

Frank, I know that at seventeen I'm not supposed to give you my world.
I'm not supposed to put all of myself behind the love I feel for you.
I'm not supposed to know that I'm yours for the rest of my life.
I'm not supposed to be in love with you.
I'm not supposed to love you.
I'm not supposed to be aware that I'd die without you.

Well since when did I ever do anything the way it was supposed to be?

It's how I feel Frank.
I never did grow up how a normal teenager did.

~~I can't stand it when you're gone, please come back.~~

heartofbden @ 2008-02-25T15:46:00

2008-02-25T23:47:40Z

So the world has reached normal again.
I feel like everything is finally aligning
the way that it was meant to. Frank,
I'm really sorry that I really wasn't there
to help you when you were in so much
pain. I love you more than anything. I
am more convinced than ever that you
are my life.

Everyone else, I miss you. I remember
the day that I had a lot of friends and
people really talked to me. I know
that you all are in your own lives,
but don't forget Super Brendon,
kay?